Mindful Monday’s with Ms. Bee
💭OMG... he proposed to her, how sweeet... she is a fiancé, yaaaasss sis! I just love LOVE! Well that one Facebook game said I’ll be married in 2030... and we are almost in 2021 (glances around at clutter around my room)... maybe I’m not ready yet anyway. Whew I’ll be 46! Jayden will be 22! At that point, do I just fall into the “cat lady” life? “Just embrace it girl”, I say aloud to my mind. What do these women possess that I’m missing? Nah that ain’t it, I got everything I need... quit comparing yourself... besides I looooove me... but for real, am I meant to be alone? Hmmm nah... can’t be. Did I miss the boat? Well I remember Mrs. T didn’t get married until she was in her 50’s and Mr. D until his 60’s. I won’t be able to have another baby at that age though... hmm... so was I made to be by myself? Maybe because I was sent here to heal... only room for me on this journey? Does that mean no more babies? Because I surely am over the baby mama role... ha! Even though my son was the greatest gift, that BM life is overrated for sure...Hmmm... why does everyone say I’m so cool, full of love, and inspiring but I ain’t inspired this husband yet (chuckles at my own corny joke)...(starts thinking of Joan on girlfriends “I’m happy for her” moment...) and role plays it... laughs again and then the voice in my head says “Ms. Bee come back to earth... “
I oblige, Then I close my eyes...take a deep breath in through the nose, filling my lungs and holding those thoughts there... really acknowledging them, smiling slightly, being careful to not judge them... and then out through the mouth goes breath and thoughts... and in this moment, I let it Bee 🐝
Join us on Monday’s as I share her innermost thoughts. Feel free to comment with your own thoughts and together we will let them flow downstream. (Or just read them, that’s ok too)
Then share with someone you know that can relate 🍯 or keep it for you.
💭 OMG! That is great news, but hold up now, back it up. I’m confused. I don’t like the way this feels (Knot in my stomach tightens) Why am I always the last to know? Like how am I just now finding out? Did I miss something? My head IS in the clouds sometimes, nah that’s not it, I would’ve remembered this. Maybe I’m overthinking it? I mean are we friends for real or nah? This just isn’t sitting right with me. It’s my mouth ain’t it? Because I do say things and try to keep it real, you know, 100. But that doesn’t mean people can’t share their truth. Do I make people uncomfortable with my opinion? Am I that harsh? There I go, this isn’t even about you. How did I make this about me again? Them people aren’t even thinking about me. (Chuckles in my head), Real talk, it’s really none of my business. Picture that, I laughs at myself again and then the voice in my head says “Ms. Bee come back to earth... “
I oblige, Then I close my eyes...take a deep breath in through the nose, filling my lungs and holding those thoughts there... really acknowledging them, smiling slightly, being careful to not judge them... and then out through the mouth goes breath and thoughts... and in this moment, I let it Bee 🐝
Join us on Monday’s as I share her innermost thoughts. Feel free to comment with your own thoughts and together we will let them flow downstream. (Or just read them, that’s ok too)
Then share with someone you know that can relate 🍯 or keep it for you.
💭 Do I have COVID? I mean I wear my mask everyday. I make sure to use hand sanitizer. I try to stay 6 Feet away from people, but I do go out. And I try not to be where there are big crowds. But I mean what am I supposed to do, just sit in the house all the time. Like, people are going crazy, I don’t want to go crazy. Is that an itch I feel in my throat. Ahem. Am I, I feel like I’m warm, I feel like I’m warm, let me take my temperature. Ok, my temperature is ok. Ok, what are the symptoms? Just go to google. Ummm I just, I don’t know what to do, I just want things to go back to normal. Like can they go back to normal already? I don’t want to wear this mask anymore. Do I have Covid, naw I don’t have Covid.. sighs again and then the voice in my head says “Ms. Bee come back to earth... “
I oblige, Then I close my eyes...take a deep breath in through the nose, filling my lungs and holding those thoughts there... really acknowledging them, smiling slightly, being careful to not judge them... and then out through the mouth goes breath and thoughts... and in this moment, I let it Bee 🐝
Join us on Monday’s as I share her innermost thoughts. Feel free to comment with your own thoughts and together we will let them flow downstream. (Or just read them, that’s ok too)
Then share with someone you know that can relate 🍯 or keep it for you.
💭 Try online dating they said... ok well there was that one couple that get married from online... ok so lucky bachelors 5”4 ok swipe left... guys normally add on 2 inches anyway and I’m 5”4, is that shallow? is that why I’m single... ? That’s alright keep going ... this guy is cute... what does he do for a living... pipe layer at self employed... a ha... it’s a swipe left for me, alright this guy looks like he has it together , graduated from a HBCU... ok..:he doesn’t want kids... well I do, maybe if I swipe right he’ll find out that he really does... ok... wait I know this dude... isn’t he with ole girl? Why am I even on here? Maybe Mr. Right with show up tomorrow and we’ll find each other but what will we tell people about where we met? This is too much and with another deep sigh the voice in my head says “Ms. Bee come back to earth... “
I oblige, Then I close my eyes...take a deep breath in through the nose, filling my lungs and holding those thoughts there... really acknowledging them, smiling slightly, being careful to not judge them... and then out through the mouth goes breath and thoughts... and in this moment, I let it Bee 🐝
Join us on Monday’s as I share her innermost thoughts. Feel free to comment with your own thoughts and together we will let them flow downstream. (Or just read them, that’s ok too)
Then share with someone you know that can relate 🍯 or keep it for you.
I just want things to go back to bro so, I mean can they go back to normal already
💭 Stay Positive Miss Bee. Buuuuttt today is just going so bad, I mean how much can a Bee take. First off, how am I just supposed to let someone talk to me like that? Turn the other cheek they say, you’re better than that they say. And what if I don’t want to be better? What if sometimes I want to fight fire with fire, throw stone for stone? I know that’s not even me, but how much am I supposed to take? The worst part is bending time and time again, and getting to the point where you know that will never change anything. Be the bigger person, yea yea yea. Well I just read a post on Instagram that said “if you always find your self being the bigger person leave the small people where they are”, sounds good but what exactly does that look like? Are there classes for this? Trying to keep it positive. I ain’t a killer but don’t push me... that’s what PAC said.